Beer

Beer

Beer is great. Beer is one of the best things in life. There is not much that I do not like about it. I like the taste and the texture, the way that if feels and the look of it. I also love the way that it smells. Beer has a way of making you feel real good and it does make you feel real close, all warm inside. Another great thing about beer is the way that the feelings of it linger for a while. It is a very good thing that we really like. Now I know that not everyone likes beer the same as me or that everyone wants that same amount of beer that I do. Each and every person is different when it comes to this. I have also heard that women do not like beer as much as men do, as a rule but I am not totally convinced about this. I think that it is not the beer or that they do not like it but more how often that they want some of it. I have learned to enjoy the finer points of beer the last few years and have found that quantity is nice but quality is better. I have also noted that the amount of beer that I desire is not what it used to be. I do not like it less just do not need as much to be happy. I also look forward to the time that I encounter beer. There is nothing bad to be said about having a good beer with the one that you love.

As life goes on things happen and as it is now I have not been able to have any beer for a while. Oh it is not mine or the fault of anyone else. It is just one of those things that we have no control over. I have thought from time to time that it maybe my fault but I have come to understand that I have done nothing wrong and there is nothing being done to me. It is just the way it is. I do miss the beer, sometimes more than others. I know that my partner misses the beer also. Sometimes I know that she feels that my having to miss the beer is her fault but I know that it is not. And I know that she misses having beer as much as me. Now, I am not addicted to or obsessed with beer, it is just something that I really liked. I really thought that I was obsessed for a while. I think that maybe I did suffer from withdrawal but I know now that was in my head. It's just one of those things that when you cannot have what you want, you want it all the more plus I was used to having beer just about whenever I wanted it.

Part of the problem is that I no longer have any control when I will have beer and I do not know from time to time when I will have any. I have had to learn to accept the fact of this loss of control. For a man, this is a hard thing to do. There are times that I just want to reach out and have some beer; I mean it is there close at hand. Sometimes the urge to have some beer is very strong. I have nothing physically wrong with me to stop me from having beer, but the situation does not lend itself to this. So I am learning to do without beer so often. I am also learning to not be as bothered by the loss as I was in the beginning. I have to admit though; sometimes this is very, very difficult.

I know that sometimes I wish that there was someone that was responsible for taking beer away from me. Think about it, if I could yell at someone or hold someone responsible for this then I could vent some of the frustration I feel about this. I could argue and deal with this "person". But unfortunately there is no one that I can find to take this out on. I know that my partner is not at fault and that she is as upset about this as I am, she cannot have beer whenever she wants either and I know that she likes beer. It is very frustrating that your partner wants beer and cannot have it. She has no one to yell at either just like I do not. Remember that beer is one of lives simple pleasures and one that is not missed until it is gone. When beer is gone or the use of it is few and far between remember you will live without it. There are things to help the feelings pass. You should do your very best to enjoy all the other things in life, and try hard not to think about the things that you cannot have. Besides, who said that you will never have beer again? Hey, man does not live by beer alone.

Now you know that I am really not talking about "beer", but something we all like even better. (If you haven't figured it out yet, take out the word "beer" and insert the word "sex").

(originaly written for my mendo website in late 90's)